ANGERRRRRRRRRRRRRR

తన కోపమె తన శత్రువు,
తన శాంతమె తనకు రక్ష, దయ చుట్టంబౌ
తన సంతోషమె స్వర్గము,
తన దుఃఖమె నరక మండ్రు తథ్యము సుమతీ


For those of you who don't know the beautiful script above, its written in Telugu language and its a from Sumathi Satakam
The meaning below:

"His anger is his enemy,
His composure is his safeguard, kindness his kin
His happiness is Heaven
His sorrow is Hell, oh man of fair mind"

These words so simple and wise, and the poem and meaning i knew by-heart as a kid.
But back then, i didn't really understand their significance.
After all, who cares for anti-anger proverbs when you are a kid and free enough to scream, pull the hair, scratch, pinch and punch fellow playmates anytime we are mad at each other.
Fighting is just a simple healthy natural anger outlet and once its over, its over... the very next moment you are back playing happily with the same kids, the fight and wounds already forgotten...
Sorrow and anger never sticks for long in a child's heart.

But then we grow up, and this adult way of handling anger demands plenty of acting skills.
Smile plastered on face when talking about it, and choosing flowery words in speech when all you want to do is to scream out the worst words you ever know and let the anger out of your system.

Yes, am angry at someone at workplace since two days.
(No, am not going to tell what caused my anger here, coz its soooo silly, you'll laugh at me)
Two days over and I still keep thinking about it.
I can't go and have open fight with that Ms. X for three reasons:
1) Adults don't fight over stupid small stuff
2) My reputation as a calm, peaceful woman would be ruined after fight, and
3) Am afraid i would end up with more wounds after fight with Ms. X (after all, she's much more stronger than me :-( )


So i controlled my fighting instincts and here i am dealing it in more "mature" way
1) Letting out my anger in words by writing about it in my dear own blog.
2) Thinking about all those anti-anger proverbs which i have read till now.
3) Thinking of all the teasing and jokes from my friends at my silly unnecessary anger. (this one works best as it brings a genuine smile to my frowning face)